my head is about to 'splode!

I have decided to quit the weight loss pills. I was on phentermine. oh it works trust me but 1. you can not poop 2. you have dry mouth all the time.

so I have decided to do this the old fashioned way by working out and watching what I eat. I have been doing this for two months and I feel great but I have gained 7 pounds. I feel like drowning in a tub of tears.
I eat no processed foods and workout 2 hours every day. How the fuck is it even remotely possible that I gained weight?
I am following the p90x diet and exercise plan. I am so frustrated, I am afraid of being one of those people that have to cut out of their house.

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food enablers/ sabotagers

My first bitch is about the food people. Food people think that if you do not eat fast food or sugar or various other poisons you are depriving yourself.

You know what? Eat a cock. YOU ARE DEPRIVING YOURSELF! You are depriving your body of essential vitamins and fiber. You are depriving your mind of the stability that comes from a low sugar diet. You are depriving your life by maintaining your obesity and limiting your lifestyle. You are buying into the corporate propaganda that says in order to be happy you must have a happy meal, in order for food to be fast it must come out of a box, in order to get nutrients we must first strip food of its nutrients and then artificially add them back in with vitamins obtained from petroleum by products.

If you want to eat that shit I say go ahead, I won't stop you, enjoy. Hell I might even have a drink of soda now or then myself. BUT DO NOT ACT LIKE I AM DEPRIVING MYSELF BECAUSE I REFUSE TO PUT THAT GARBAGE IN MY BODY. It is my choice just like you driving through the mcdonalds drive through is yours.

suck it.

self improvement.

NEVER SAY YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF IN PUBLIC. Do you know why? Because if you say you want to lose weight/ look better/ work out more/ improve your body everyone on earth is there suddenly to tell you that you either should not, can not etc.

WHY?

I am convinced it is because they want you to fail.

That is right, I said it, they want you to be fat. Trust me they do. Anyone who actually wants you to improve is supportive but everyone else, even fellow fat people, will jump down your throat. They will tell you that you have a problem, they will tell you all about their past problems and go on to tell you that you have the same problem.

I am here to tell you brothers and sisters if you are outside the healthy weight range you get out there and work out and eat a balanced diet. Do not tell anyone, these hookers will be offering you poisonous foods like fast food and cookies. They will be telling you how wrong you are for trying to improve yourself. They are trying to bring you down. Fuck those people.

You get out there and do the best you can do to make yourself the best you you can be. I will support you because I want you to meet your goals.